Well well well, it’s been a long time my old friend.
I don’t want to spend a ton of time writing this. I’ve been writing for the better part of the weekend and I’m working on a few articles for this website right now so I’m a bit wiped. I just wanted to provide a quick update since I haven’t been here in a long time.
First and foremost: I probably should’ve posted this a lot sooner. It was a bit of a dick move to just not say anything for months on end. My bad.
Next, I’m still around, going to games and staying very involved with the team. Just because I’m not posting doesn’t mean I’m not there. I’ll still be doing work for Scout from time to time, and I’d like to help revive this site after it’s hiatus. That said, there is a reason I haven’t been posting or doing anything with FriarPod.
Providence basketball has meant a lot to me. For those of you who’ve read some of my posts in the past or know me personally you know that this team is kind of a big deal for me. It’s been something that I can do and feel centered, like working out or taking a drive. Having the opportunity to cover this team as a journalist is a dream come true for me, and in the past two and a half years I’ve been doing that it’s been a huge blessing. That’s not to say it hasn’t been a challenge – it’s hard to look at this team critically, cheer them on as a fan, and then switch back to analytical and go into “jouranlist mode” again. There’s nothing easy about maintaining that balance but for awhile I thought I had it figured out. I could analyze this team and enjoy them because I loved what I was doing. I still love what I do, but as it stands right now, I need this team to be somewhere I can go and escape all the day-to-day bullshit I run into, not a place where I go and wear my “work” hat over my “fan” one.
Normally I’m a very open person about the things that go on in my life. Truthfully I’m more open with this fanbase than I am with most people in my life. Kinda screwed up if you think about it, but hey, it is what it is. That said, right now I need this team to be what it was for me my junior and senior years in college: an outlet, not a work environment. I love covering this team but it sucks when we have a huge win and I have to tone down my excitement or delay it/cut it off early because I need to go home and bang out 750 unbiased words on the win. I don’t feel particularly comfortable going into all the personal things right now, so just take my word that the best thing for me is to enjoy the good feeling I have when I’m around fans and watching the games without having to think about what I’m going to say later.
That doesn’t mean I’m going to stop posting though. Part of what I need is a creative outlet. I’ve started doing that with some other aspects of writing (for those who don’t know I’m a novelist, right now my biggest priority has been getting my fourth book done after 4 years and to begin outlining books five and six) and getting my personal website, unrelated to sports, back up and running. And in addition to working on that book, I also want to treat this site like my own personal fan journal. I mentioned I’ve been working on some posts (right now one related to just what the flipping fuck is up with our lack of student participation) and I want to share some of my experiences as a fan as the year rounds out. Observations on the team, the fanbase, the experiences I have are all going to be from a fan perspective. At least for right now.
Next year, probably over the summer, I’m going to relaunch some of the more traditional Friarblog stuff you’re used to while keeping these things up. There’s a greater purpose for why I’m introducing the “fan” element to this blog, and in due time it will make a hell of a lot more sense. For now just trust me on all this.
I need this team like I need to eat. I need to talk about this team like I need to breathe. Friarblog allows me to do all of those things. But I needed to take a step back over the past few months and figure out some of life’s questions that tend to kick you in the nuts when you hit your mid-20s. I don’t have those answers, but I’m getting there. At least I’m far enough along now where I can ease back into this.
But hey, in the meantime, enjoy the stories I’m going to tell on this site. I’ll be in Chicago this weekend for the DePaul game, and you can bet there’s going to be some great tales from that journey. We still got plenty of games to go nuts at, and every part of that experience at those games are what makes me a fan, so you’ll get to hear about those. I’m sorry again I didn’t post this sooner. Hopefully you all understand and continue to be patient with me.
- Warrior Friar, AKA Danny James